.Saturday, July 14, 2007 ' 5:31 AM Y
you are my childhood superman!
didnt go to school today, down with a headache. must be too much PSP ruining my eyes :(
my posts are disappearing! HUIJUAN, WHY?! :[
felt sick the whole day, talked to baby a bit on the phone and off to bed i went. i slept the day away. thats how lethargic i was. the red shorts from pull&bear KEPT APPEARING in my mind! LIKE, WTH! get lost you thing. i know you got reduced from $34.90 to $19.90 but that doesnt give you a damn reason to keep popping up in my mind, GRAWWWWR!!
i still have hell loads of stuffs to buy, and i know i cannot spend so much. daddy just came back from malaysia and he looks so worn out, mum started crying all over again. SIGH:(
why is money so important in our lives? We can get by only with money. some people are so darn rich they neednt do anything before cash rolls into their pockets. some are so poor, they don't even have the money to survive each day. the world is getiing increasingly unfair. i no longer need to wear a new top each day, i no longer spend so much when i shop. i mean, i didnt even get anything when i went out with the girls yesterday. much as i yearn to get some decent top or bottom, thoughts of dad slogging in Malaysia, thoughts of the future pops into my mind. even a golden mountain depletes some day.
stop being such a materialistic freak.
i should be glad with what i have, and watch my damn spending.
I dont wish to grow up and depend so much on my parents, and have to end up borrowing from them day after day, have them pay for my home loans and breathing down my neck about my finance even when im old. i hate to think that my child's friends classify him as a boy from the lower income family, and dont even dare to spend when he goes out.
I must be a paranoid shit. i really wish to work earlier, get some income for the family. as little as it may be, at least i can cushion daddy from working so hard. it really breaks my heart to see him work like that, all worn out and pale, and yet i do nothing but spend his money. :[
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